A Safe Haven, my diary confession.
Hi Diary,
To my solemn quiet, a beautiful world away from the judgmental eyes, piercing and nonchalant. In this sanctuary of solitude, I find a refuge where I can unravel the tangled threads of my thoughts without fear of scrutiny. Here, the weight of expectations lifts, and I can breathe freely, allowing my mind to wander through the landscapes of my imagination.
Until next time,
Helen.
Hi Diary,
To you alone can I share my fears.
I’m super sorry it took a long while for me to communicate my thoughts, but I’m here now.
I want to express my fear of losing a family member, someone so dear to my heart who holds a part of me. The thought of having to see them go, not hearing from them, or living with the consciousness of seeing them until Jesus calls us all, pains my soul and stirs a turbulent volcano within me. (Lol, if there’s such a thing).
Thank you for being my safe space.
Sincerely,
Helen.
Dear Diary,
I’m here again, as I promised to keep in touch frequently!
Is it safe to say I fear people not seeing the best in me or facing rejection? I worry about those who might think, “Oh, she loves being the center of attention,” or “She just wants to be the only one doing it, acting like she knows best.”
My worst fear is that people I thought were in my circle— those who should understand me— see me in a different light. I just want to be loved and to please those I care about.
I hope it’s not too much to ask. Is it worth fearing?
Helen.
Dear Diary,
I’m here with a heavy heart.
The thought of betrayal from someone so close, someone with whom I share my thoughts and secrets, disturbs me deeply.
How will I cope if it actually happens?
It’s crystal clear that I can’t handle betrayal; it would shatter me. I pray I don’t face such betrayal, but who am I deceiving? I hope I can be strong enough to withstand it when the time comes.
With a heavy heart,
Helen.
